So now i wait to hear when i meet with a urologist at Johns Hopkins. This part seems so scary. I have read that the problem can resolve itself. I sure hope so. The thought of lovelykins getting anymore procedures, or God forbid surgery is just scary to me. In the meantime and until further notice i need give a daily half teaspoon of bactrum. not really a fan of medicating, but it beats serious long term scaring of the urinary tract. At least we 4 healthy months. Why can't i enjoy my babies all the way to one year? I only asked for 6 months this time. I guess we just fell 2 weeks short of that....
I am a little numb and not sure how i feel or even how to act. Kevin is away and already delayed. Thanks to the storm i have no idea when he will get home. Church has already pretty much been canceled. No need for anyone to risk themselves. i am beginning to get a more numb then i think is safe. i need to stay feeling and engaged. I can feel the shutdown happening. I doubt that shutting off again will be good for anyone. I have loved our mommy baby dance so far.
Today exhaustion might be part of the problem. Up till one waiting from the teen to get home from her midnighter. That is what the all nighter switched to with the storm.
I really need my man. I just want to be held by him and know that this fight like all of the others we are in together. I also wish it was someone other then me shoveling and trying to get the dogs to pee outside. But off for a shower. it is truly restorative. And yes even confined this woman needs one
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